Awh anon, I’m glad you’re talking to us about it. Just by reaching out and dealing with your mental illnesses on a day by day basis you ARE fighting it. If a frame of mind was so easy to change and our energy levels were so easily boosted, many helpful sites and therapeutic techniques would not exist.
Try to be kind to yourself about this. In no way are you inferior, weak, or hopeless just because you are not ready to or not equipped to actively push back against your illnesses. Sometimes living moment-to-moment is the best we can do. And that’s okay :)
I encourage you to do subtle things to boost your energy like any ill (physically or mentally ill) person would do : Get a good and regular amount of sleep. Eat healthily. Do gentle exercising, even if it’s as simple as getting up and stretching out and touching your toes a couple of times, that’s something that’ll get some oxygen to your brain and some blood flowing.
There are ways you can make yourself feel better too physically which are steps towards feeling better psychologically/mentally. Treat yourself kindly as you would treat any ill person. Reward your small steps forward like your great step of reaching out to us. Listen to relaxing audios and guided meditations to clear and calm your mind. Practice grounding. Practice coping. Try out interactive websites like MoodGym which teach CBT skills to cope with depression and anxiety.
It’s okay if these don’t help. They are just meant to give you some direction so you aren’t fumbling around in your own feelings and thoughts alone. You are not alone in this anon. I believe in you :) Which brings me to my last point, surround yourself with positive people who believe in you. This can help boost your energy, help aid the switch to a more optimistic point of view, or at least help you combat your feelings and thoughts when you’re having them.
Best wishes ! And again, don’t be so hard on yourself. You are doing a lot already even though you don’t realise it. Just knowing where you should be headed is a great start.
LIST OF REALLY SUPER CUTE THINGS:
I can't deal with my mental illnesses at all. When I feel anxious I know I should do work to take my mind off it, but I don't. When I feel sad and think horrible things about myself I know I should talk back to that voice, but I don't. I'm letting myself get swallowed up by anxiety and sadness, but I am in no way fighting back and I just don't have the energy or the frame of mind to change my frame of mind.
You have to sit yourself down, like a child, and explain to your own self why people are cruel to you. Then, you have to tell yourself that their words or actions don’t matter and you are a phenomenal human being - yes, even with your many flaws. It will be hard to believe the words you’re telling yourself, but you’ll need to. You’ll need to believe them with all your heart.
Excuse me while I share my fleeting excitement.
I recently bought this body scrub and only used it for the first time earlier.
It made my skin feel pretty smooth and most importantly, it made me feel good. I’m glad I dedicated a bit of time to massage myself thoroughly and carefully; it counts as an act of self-care, doesn’t it? ◠‿◠